If you are too tired, too broken, or too poor – guess what? you need to find a way

Recently one of my friends asked me if I ever doubted I’d achieve my IFBB Pro Athlete status because I posted a comment about how “overwhelmed” I was still weeks after my competition.  I thought about her question for a  few seconds before I responded right away that of course I knew I would get my pro card ONE day.  I believed in my goal. It was the TIMING I could not control.  My goal was not only realistic according to the best in the business, but I was putting in the work.  I mean I was really putting in the work–excuse free.  Many people have “reasons” (if you don’t want to call them excuses) that they get off course of doing literally EVERYTHING it takes to achieve a goal.  I don’t complain about injuries, sore muscles, cost of food, prepping food, cost of competing, training to compete.  My coaches will tell you.  I have about 1 weak moment per prep and it’s usually an instance where I doubt myself.  They get me in check and we keep on rocking :)  But I can’t think of too many times I’ve requested ANY deviations. I just DO.  After all, I believe when you want to get to a certain level of success it’s not always about “doing your best.” Because honestly if my best is better than yours, I will beat you!  To be successful you must do WHAT IS REQUIRED.  If you can’t do it, you don’t get the success.  I know I make it sounds black and white, but that’s how I’ve approached all of my goals, so I can’t help it.  So for example if I REALLY want to get into a professional school, I take  a  standardized test, and I get a low-average score that means compared to the rest of the nation my chances of achieving acceptance are low.  So at that point I could decide to keep pushing to get the national average or better or I can say I just wasn’t good enough and move on.  In fitness competitions I believe many people “move on” in a different way by just not doing everything it takes to make it without deviations.  If you are too tired, too broken, or too poor – guess what? you need to find a way, but it’s still really in your control!  I’ve never blamed anyone for my shortcomings, because I know at the end of the day my succcess is up to me.  So everyday I try.  I push hard even though I’m not the best RIGHT NOW because it will eventually come together.  I have tenacity and that is my strength.  I hold on until it’s my turn to receive my blessing.  If I am not ready everyday though, those opportunities don’t just get thrown at you.  I have learned to be ready for any opportunity by being successful in my DAILY life.  Little by little the big goals come but if I’m not ready EVERYDAY, then oops there goes a great opportunity…

…the rest of the story…

Since competing at Team Universe, I’ve received an overwhelming amount of congratulatory statements from friends, family, and strangers!  I appreciate every single positive gesture.  After all, my determination to keep competing actually comes from that exact energy.  So while I am so humbled to receive compliments about my win and earning my pro card, what touches my heart most is when I see the words “you inspire me” come across my phone/computer.  Just today I’ve had two extremely driven women tell me I’m the reason they keep pushing to establish a healthy lifestyle.  Let me tell you, that really means more to me than any trophy, diploma, or money.  I desire to inspire. It’s not easy at all I will be honest.  To push through with this crazy schedule and make things happen that seem impossible…whew! But that’s why I had to share the rest of my story of making it to Team Universe a few weeks ago.

Not only did I have to select a rotation months in advance that actually would allow me to have a day off to get there, but I had to consider NOT being in the operating room the weeks leading up (you can’t eat and drink on a regular schedule). Then at least 6 weeks before I had to plan to work all day the day before I left just so I could catch a plane to check in on time.  All that week I was doing cardio sessions back to back due to not being able to workout early because I have to be at work so early!  I was pretty fatigued, but I kept receiving encouraging notes from people.  “It’s your time.” “Pro card time, baby.” Man, not only did I feel external pressure, but I already knew I couldn’t do any of the other NPC Pro Qualifying shows this year due to specific rotations I was scheduled for later.  This was my one and only shot for 2013.  So I kept pushing.  Tired, but pumped.  I felt ready..Best I ever looked.  By time I arrived to check in I had been up for about 36 hours straight.  I was concerned about holding water, getting soft… falling apart basically.  You know what? None of that happened.  I was able to stay on top of water, meals, and supplements while flying to minimize any issues!  When I checked in with my coaches I was a happy girl.  I got off of my feet and slept as long as possible before getting up to prep for Friday’s events.  Before I knew it…things were coming together…and the rest is history…


Be a Big Player

When I hear people start to talk about “fake dreams” I zone out and just smile and node.  By “fake dreams” I mean people want, want, WANT but don’t make any moves!  Or more discretely (usually) the actions made are about 25% of their capability and they blame non-progression on an outside source. Sigh.  You at LEAST have to try big and fail to make a move forward.  Personally, my greatest successes have evolved from my failures.  So don’t talk about what you want one day or what you wish you had.  Do something everyday that helps you progress toward the life you want! 


Photo by George Kontaxis


Uncommon Dreams

When I was growing up I had a really hard time learning how to park my car (regular spaces, not parallel – I’m weird).  I took my driving test 3 times.  Throughout the process no one ever told me “You know you’re never going to get your license.”  That even sounds awkward.  But people are quick to tell you you cannot do the things they never achieved themselves.  If your dreams are uncommon it does not mean they are unachievable.

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A Dream Come True

Today I am waking up still having problems processing everything that happened this weekend at Team Universe.  Not only was it an emotional roller coaster, but it ended in a way better than I could have ever imagined.  I NEVER in a million years thought I could win an Overall Title along with my pro card. So, yes, it will take time to set in that I am now a professional athlete in the IFBB, but as a great mentor once told me titles do not define who you are.  

My daily actions and those I impact during my lifetime define who I am.  I will still wake up early to get to my current med school rotations (internal medicine), my number one concern will be not killing anyone.  My second concern will be doing my best as a student.  I’ll scramble to prep the rest of my food, take care of my puppy, get to the gym, etc.  It’s the SAME routine.

THIS is why I believe it’s important to base my feelings/emotions on how each day goes.  One at a time.  One step closer to goals.  After all NOTHING comes on our schedule.  Enjoy the ride because although the destination sounds great you might miss the beautiful scenery! :)

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